PUT OUT THE FIRE

It is 2:40 am in the night.I am walking on the Ludlow street and everything is silent. Darkness is resting upon the deserted roads.I stop walking and wait for the signal to turn to red from green, even though all street is deserted and i could have not cared about traffic rules, but after all it is USA and at this time of the night, I should be more careful.

Inside the paths of my mind , I feel lost and my soul is incomplete. My heart is on a fire insatiable and incomprehensible, burning away for unknown reasons.

Suddenly i hear a shrill sound and a fire engine flashes by in a hurry. I am careful to remain on the other side of the path.
The slender body of the engine goes away with glowing brilliant red and orange lights on it.I am still on the other side of the road, my feet frozen at the spot

A thought flashes in my mind. Somewhere, the firefighters shall be able to douse the fire where it occured, and rescue the people from the catastrophe.
But it is such a pity that the same fire engine cannot douse the flames rising in my heart and charring it away. I thus stand in wonderment.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Sometimes, it is so strange, that you have the solution-engine passing you by, when there is fire of questions and doubts in your mind, but sometimes, the solutions which work for one situation may not work for the other. Clearly, the fire in this heart cannot be extinguished by the enormous water tank of this big fire engine, but perhaps by something else.

Just then, I sat down on a bench close to the path and there was an endless flow of water, saline though. I realized i was crying endlessly to my hearts' desire. In some time, i felt mellowing of the fire in my heart as my eyes' engines emptied themselves in full fervor.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Many a times, the solution to a problem lies inside us. Just that we need to see it through egoless eyes.

MAZED MIND..

A voice banging in my head loudly and giving rise to these thoughts: Don't know why but since some months, my mind is in a maze, as if its not a human mind,but an animal's mind, emptied of all logic and sensibility in its entirety
. I don't mean in a pervert sense, but yes in a too impulsive and obsessive sense.
I am almost on the verge of giving up...

Giving up something , which agreed does not fulfills my heart desire and passion any longer, but surely it was something which I just cant shun away or discard right away, because it was won at too high a price, both in terms of money and time, labor and endeavor.



Another voice whispering:
Fight the convolutions of the mind and be strong..
I have to be strong...
I have to be strong...
There is a powerful force around me laden with positive energy , which is battling with negative energies emanating in my mind. I would like to call these negative energies to be clouds of confusions and convolutions..
The strong force girdling me is every time protecting me from downfall. Downfall of spirits and hope...And precluding my fall from grace..
Oh Lord, Grant me the grace to accept what I cannot and the courage to change what I
CAN...


Voices in a mind mazed...
voices rattling, some whispering..
but in the end if i hear with the heart of hope and the soul of silence, I can hear the wise voice...!! which is in form of whispers...!!!!!

The Green Deed

The Green Deed

Today, I planted a sapling for the first time in my entire life...!!
Never realized this small act could yield such pleasure, bliss and satiety. But more so, it instilled a sense of responsibility from inside - that sense which I had stopped sensing since some time. The small wooden enclosure outside my apartment with dark brown, rather blacker mud became the chosen spot for the “green deed”.
I went along with my kind roommate with a glass of water in hand and chalice of gladness in heart, and gently laid the roots of the sapling to the ground and buried them in the black mud thereafter. After resting it firmly, I poured water on it and patted the wet ground with my hands, and gave one last glance at it before making my way back to the comfort of my room in my apartment.


The sapling swayed in the gentle wind, remaining steady though. I felt my gaze locked on it for brief seconds, as I made my way away from it. I felt as if it whispered something in the winds’ ears...the words drifting towards me...the language of which was apparently undecipherable but the essence of the feelings translating into something like-

“Mama, you have rested me now
In my wet and soft black cradle,
Sung a sweet lullaby to me by your caring eyes
Your beautifully gentle hands have
Patted my forehead
You have quenched my thirst
By the water you gave me
I was abandoned
But you found me
And gave me a new life
I pray this life is nurtured by you
Every passing day.

With your daily cares
And affection-laden glances
Tokens of love
Making me feel wanted
Making me feel loved.
Just remember
To shower your pristine love on me
Tomorrow, And
Every passing day...”

As the last word reached my ears, I sensed my last tear reaching the corner of my dry lips. I took a long look at the tiny little sapling and blew a flying kiss at it and then looked towards the azure blue sky.
I prayed to the Sun God to never be too harsh on this sweet little sapling of mine, but be gentle when shining his glory upon it.
I beseeched the gay flock of birds flying above, to be caring and considerate towards my sweet little sapling.

I knew even before this sapling would grow up into an imposing tree, the sapling of care, love and responsibility grew into a full-blown tree in the wet soil of my heart, at that very instant, laden with flowers of wonder and bliss.
I went to my room
Turned off the lights
Drift to Land of Nod
Morn comes
I go along with the business of my life, walking past that sapling outside my apartment door.
Every passing day, I make it a point to remember to take care of this sweet sapling.
Every night, i pin my growing hopes and dreams to my new found little baby.

Somewhere, Mother Nature has begun her work...
On this small and naive baby, my sapling
Somewhere, Good Lord has begun His work...
On this small and naive heart, my heart.

FIREWORK

Recently, came across a song “Firework” by Katy Perry by chance, but the video, its lyrics, its music, its luminance and inspirational message kept on haunting me until I decided I should pen down my thoughts about it. This song actually featured as #1 in Top lists at the time it was released as well. The song was filmed in the beautiful city of Budapest in Hungary. The video is available on YouTube at this link: 
Katy Perry - Firework (Official Music Video)

The video of the song is pretty thoughtful as well and quite in sync with the message it portrays. Well, I did find couple of interpretations and symbolisms for the song, but then thought of posting my overall detailed analysis of this beautiful song called FIREWORK

The song has a lot of messages in it. It talks about how every human being is unique and “cannot be replaced”. In spite of one or several flaws, each one of us is worth on this earth and need not feel like a worthless and empty “plastic bag” drifted away by the wind.

The video features a young boy incapable of protest against his fighting parents, a small girl suffering from cancer and without any hair after chemotherapy, a bulky woman afraid to join the pool party of her friends, a gay unable to express his love and feelings to a guy in the bar and finally a young magician being intimidated by a gang of robbers.

Evidently, the common cord which connects all these souls is imperfection and fear stemming from that imperfection. All of them are afraid to take a step further because of their inhibitions which are holding them back and precluding their glory from shining brightly.

In other words, what Perry hints through her song is that in fact all of have a “spark” in us which needs to be ignited, either by self-determination and self-confidence, or through confidence pouring from others in our group.



In this video, Katy acts like the fountainhead of fireworks generating brilliant lights which help to ignite the latent spark in all of the above characters in the video. It is remarkable how each of them, then sheds their respective inhibitions and moves on to shine brighter than the moon. Even moon has a black mark on it and isn’t perfect, but still shines.

“You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July”

One of the metaphors in the song which I find particularly striking is that of “owning the night, like the fourth of july”. These lines actually act like a clarion call to those characters and humanity in general, to set themselves free from the dark slavery of their fears and flaws and be independent, be ignited. Let the true colors of yourself burst through this night and like a brilliant firework shine to your glory and show your true colors and gain victory on the night which here again, refers to the darkness of the soul and the inhibitions.

Towards the end, the video also sends a message of unity of humanity as we see Katy dancing to the beautiful fireworks with a huge crowd where all of them are exuding lights and contribute to create a panoramic firework with brilliant colors. Thus, all of us, irrespective of our health, sexuality, age and ability should rise together in unity and let the colors harmonize to create a brilliant display of fireworks.
Lot of gems of inspiration are contained in this video and it asks every being to be optimistic in spite of all as “after a hurricane comes a rainbow”.

Los of references to colors in this video urge the humanity to accept that each one of us has the power to rise and shine and awe the world. Just as a lovely firework owns the night and glorifies it and ushers light, in the same way, all of us have the power to lighten this life and conquer the darkness within.

THE BIRD SHALL RETURN

“O! God, please give me
True grace and solace
Every turmoil so that
I can then face.”

Lugubrious tidings,
Catastrophes outside,
Inner misgivings
Still I hide.

That which could have
Set me free
As you said once
Has left my lips
Like a barbaric bird
Wild and carefree

I bow down to you
My quivery hands
Reach out to you
May truth be each word!
When I open my heart to you

And then shall
Your grace
Set me free truly
And peace will light
The darkness clearly

The bird shall
Then return
With wings of Faith
And alight softly
Upon my lips
And through all clutter
My heart will feel
It’s peaceful flutter.


---Shilpi, 28 Dec, 2009

SENSE OF SOUL

These eyes of mine
Do not like the sight
Of people obese
Far from the beauty of the body
But inside, my mind is at ease
When it has a big fat ego
Inflated till eternity

These lait-colored hands
Of mine, do not like
To touch the black
Complexion and the race inferior
But inside there is a corner
Shamelessly black in the heart

These ears of mine
Do not like to hear
Words vilifying and not sounding
Joyful and encouraging, but
Every time I hear
Satan’s voice inside of me
Tempting, demeaning
Hiding the conscience and alluring
Directing to all fear

I do not like the smell
Odoriferous of rotten ground
And slums steeped
In filth and poverty
But inside, deepest crevices
Of the body, lie smells
Unsweet and hidden
Like the path less trodden

This tongue of mine
Does not relish
The alcohol and the drink
But inside the veins, flows
The wine of heaven on the brink

What these external
Organs of sense perceive
Is not dissimilar from
My core, now I believe

But today I want to
Place my greater faith on
That which is perfect
And without prejudice
That which perceives the outside
From the inside hole,
The perfect sixth sense
And they call it the ‘soul’

-------------Shilpi, Dec 27,2009

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